A quick moment.

I often wonder how other career moms of young children get through their days. Like myself, I assume they are busy. Caught up in emails, workplace chatter, meetings and seemingly endless projects.. sometimes my days go by rather quickly and I don't really have a moment to think
about what I am missing at home.

Those are days I don't mind being a working mom.

But some days I find myself staring at my child's face on my computer screen and a crushing wave comes down on me when I think of all the time I am missing with her. My eyes get wet and I blink several times to hold back the splashes. I find myself praying that no one will come looking for me in my office at that moment. I can't help but think about what it will be like when I have that second baby I'm longing for. This time around I won't be able to take a year off work. When I think about the trade=off I know working pales in comparison to what I would be asking my children to give up in return. The life Olivia's father and I are working hard to provide for her is well worth those heartbroken moments at my desk.

Eventually Olivia (and her future sibling) will be in school and so busy that she will hardly notice that she only sees me a few hours a day during the week. Selfishly I think that might be worse for me.